| Thursday, November 2nd, 2006 |
| 12:37 pm |
my my...
Wow, I have been sitting here reading past entries and I am in complete astonashment. I am a fucking loser lol. It's almost embarassing what I have posted on here. Nothing intellectual, nothing worth reading, high school dramatic bullshit..that's all it is. Why do I even have this thing anymore? Who knows, maybe i'll actually start writing in it more often. I guess life is about the same, except now im in college. It's really no different then High School in most aspects. Same drama, same stupid people, same bullshit. I mean at least I can choose my classes that is pretty rad I will admit. I just don't do anything really except sit in this dorm room. I can't visit home because it's too far away, but I don't think I would really want to go back anyway. I've returned once and I just hated it, it is such a horrible place. I duno, I suppose college isn't that bad. There are some cool people here I will admit. It just seems weird, I always thought of Portland as some kick ass place(which it is) but now that I am here I've realized how incredibly trendy it is here. Most people look the same. I duno why this bugs me so much but it does. I always felt like an outcast in Burns because nobody was like me and all I wanted was a place to go where I was accepted and now that I'm here I've realized people are just the same. Even though they dress similar to me, and their views are alot the same..most of them are still assholes. Most of them still give into the evil corporations and go shopping at "Hot Topic" and get their coffee from godforsaken Starbucks. And all this time I still dress like them, smoke, drink coffee...every damn thing that is so usuall of a Portlander. I'm never going to give up the things I do but god, I don't want to seem like another mindless idiot. I guess it will just take some getting used to. I mean if all else fails I've always got my literature and my music. Speaking of music. I made the biggest mix ever basically. Katrina really wanted a huge mix of various genres and asked me to create one so...I did. It is basically a monster. But goddamn its good and I can't stop listening to it. The genres mixed together sound so perfect. Folk, Hardcore, Punk, Metal, Indie...it's all great together. I'll post the tracklisting later but not now since I have class. And if you don't know some of the stuff on there you should look into it. I might even put the genre next to the name so you know if you'd be interested, but maybe not because im a lazy ass and that takes alot of effort. I guess this is all I have time for but I'll continue this discussion another day. Current Music: Neutral Milk Hotel - Holland 1945 |
| Thursday, September 1st, 2005 |
| 9:45 am |
school blows ass
oh jesus its been a long time since i have updated. i have new pictures maybe i will put them on soon so yeah im writing my personality essay for senior project and i am an INTJ so pretty much im an asshole and have no personality muahahahaha. yeah school sucks and i hate this place and i wish i were done allready dammit!!!! but on the good news who has front row tickets to see henry rollins on november 7th? OOO OOO THATS ME! WHOO! this is like the most exciting thing of my freakin life. annnnnd i have good tickets to see system of a down and the mars volta fuck yes. so yeah thats allies happy news for now.. school filters suck i want to be on myspace dammit! Current Mood: bitchyCurrent Music: in my head biatches |
| Friday, June 24th, 2005 |
| 3:46 pm |
zombie
i feel like a walking zombie right now. heres my eventfull night: i get off work at 9ish and come home. mercedes calls and i go to samanthas at about 10. then we migrate to cedes house and play trivial pursuit until mike and curtis show up. then they sit down and play it with us till about 1am. so then they left cuz mercedes dads gone and they werent supposed to be there so sam,cedes, and i went downstairs and made some clam chowder and ate it and watched american dad. then we went back upstairs and bitched about working at dq for HOURS. so were bitching about work and cedes goes to throw her gum out the window and was like HOLY SHIT THE SUNS UP! so we find a clock and find out its 5a.m. and were like well shit...and sam freaked cuz she had to work at noon. but we still weren't tired so we decided that pancakes sounded super yummy so at about 5:30 we drove to the truck stop to get breakfast. it was good. then we went back and were like well i guess we can sleep til 8 cuz thats when we had to go home so we slept for a whopping 1 1/2 hours then i left..came home and slept till 10 then had to get up and go clean and shit so ive slept 3 hours today and even tho i feel tired im kinda hyper!!! or dillerious... Current Mood: confusedCurrent Music: the abrasives |
| Sunday, March 27th, 2005 |
| 3:25 pm |
HAHA YES!  | You scored as atheism. You are... an atheist, though you probably already knew this. Also, you probably have several people praying daily for your soul.
Instead of simply being "nonreligious," atheists strongly believe in the lack of existence of a higher being, or God.
atheism | | 100% | agnosticism | | 88% | Paganism | | 83% | Satanism | | 83% | Islam | | 63% | Buddhism | | 58% | Judaism | | 54% | Hinduism | | 33% | Christianity | | 17% | </td>
Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com | Current Music: the killers-mr. brightside |
| Sunday, January 16th, 2005 |
| 5:56 pm |

Maddox rules. for everyone who hasnt been to the website..go now
maddox.xmission.com
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| Saturday, January 15th, 2005 |
| 8:13 pm |
it is so lonesome when Sam is not around. He went to Chance's house tonight to watch movies which is fine. I told him I would stay on but I have a feeling that I will stay awake til around 12 and he will just stay at Chance's house and I will sit here doing nothing all night. But then again I could be wrong so I dont wanna go to bed. Yea, sucks.
Anyway, there is not a whole lot to write about. I'm so lazy i haven't done anything except listen to music and read all weekend. I'm reading Stephen King-Needful Things..wonderful book I recomend it to everyone. I listened to Joe tell me about his mullet and growing it out so he can have it when he goes to see Motley Crue, what a strange boy he is. mullets...I have to say I like David much better without his.... lol
Hmm....back to reading i suppose Current Mood: tiredCurrent Music: black flag-tv party |
| Saturday, December 25th, 2004 |
| 6:17 pm |
picture time!   
 Current Mood: calmCurrent Music: janis joplin-take another piece of my heart |
| Sunday, December 19th, 2004 |
| 8:31 pm |


hmm....im bored...lookie its my love!!! hehehe..that shirt makes me laugh seeings how he HATES nofx now..hahah FUCKER...nofx..what a dissapointment..those bastards..but melvins still cool? yea? Current Mood: chipperCurrent Music: Tool-parabols |
| Saturday, December 4th, 2004 |
| 12:56 pm |
why is there nothing eventful going on anymore? i have nothing to do. i have to serve that dance team dinner tonight at 6 and thats like the hilite of my day lol. haha. ive been reading harry potter books and listening to pennywise and pink floyd for 2 weeks straight...what a loser .....i think i need to go buy some more chuck palahniuk and kurt vonnegut books Current Mood: contentCurrent Music: 7 seconds |
| Saturday, November 13th, 2004 |
| 9:09 am |
free speech is like money...some people have alot more of it then others
its 9 in the morning..no one is here and i should be in bed correct? no my brother thinks he needs to call 8 times in a row this morning. gr. last night was fun sam and i went and got mistys and watched the movie double jeopardy(awesome movie) and then sat and watched motormouth.hahaha. it was a fun night. my parents are gone for the next 2 days and i am super happy about this!!! i love having the house all to my lonesome. i'm probably going to end up turning the music up super load and mosh dancing with myself and singing and slam dancing and...loose some weight while doing that lol. *advice to all listeners* if u want to loose weight while having fun all you must do is dance hard and nonstop to either "rage against the machine-live @ olympic auditorium"..or "refused-the shape of punk to come" guarantee u will have lost about 5-10 pounds by the time you get to the end of those. im bored no one is online cause its too early...i need something to do!! Current Mood: tiredCurrent Music: janis joplin-me and my bobby mcgee |
| Thursday, November 11th, 2004 |
| 8:35 pm |
I'm a twenty-first century digital boy.... so im sitting in my James Dean shirt listening to Stranger Than Fiction...good eh?
today sucked it was boring as hell. i sat around for 5 hours watching vh1's 100 greatest artist of hardrock only to see bad brains, fugazi, henry, etc...(ive seen this show a thousand times!) and thats about it for today folks. so now im sitting here...doing nothing as always. i am reading raymonds book he is writing its fantastic. henry rollins style of writing...hes gonna try and get it published which will be no problem.
i wanna see anonamis play again. i told sam i'd get them a venue if they would play but we will see what happens i guess huh?...well i guess thats all i have to say.. Current Mood: hyperCurrent Music: bad religion-stranger than fiction |
| Thursday, October 21st, 2004 |
| 2:14 pm |
this has been the most eventful week ever
wow, so lets see what happened this week shall we Last Thursday-this is when the whole thing started. k so sam n i are walking down the hall and we see this huge sign that says "want your guns, vote bush" in the schools hallway so being the good citizens we are we rip it down. only to find out its the government class...big whoop *monday-i go to use the restroom and there is a big NRA banner in the bathroom. i am quite peeved. so i rip it down and take it to mr. johnson and told him that its a bunch of shit that they can have these signs up but yet i cant wear my political band shirts? *tuesday-everyone gets all pissed off at everyone for ripping the damn signs down and decide to surround those individuals lockers with bush signs (not mine or i wud have beat some ass) and blah blah blah everyone is FREAKING OUT! and my bud chance gets thrown into a locker and threatened to be beaten up. *wednesday-the class has to take down their signs. but they are holding a mock election. after having to sit thru the bush campaign i proceeded to ask my questions like i was told i could only to have a bunch of ppl start screaming at me. i mean if your going to give a speech on how great president bush is then dammit you better be able to answer my questions on the fucking idiot. shayna williams thought it would be funny to try to get me introuble for wearing safety pins becuz they are a "weapon" ya i could poke you in the fuckin head with my pencil whats ur point? n then i got called a fag loving baby killer wow i really do go to school with 3 year olds!!! so our school is like a war zone. its great Current Mood: lonelyCurrent Music: in my head is the voice of maynard james keeton |
| Monday, September 27th, 2004 |
| 2:56 pm |
punks not dead...but it deserves to die
im at school and im supposed to be doing online learning right now but ya know i just dont feel like learning. today was decent just seemed pretty long ya kno? i really dont understand this: -when i wear skirts with fishnets and shit its a horrible trend and ur just horrible for wearing it and ppl can laugh about it... but then the same preppy people who laugh at you for it can wear the exact same thing the next day and it is soooo cute and everyone loves it. is it just me or should i kill them? .....kill Current Music: nothing but i do have the bad brains in my head |
| Sunday, September 26th, 2004 |
| 5:38 pm |
whats the matter man...whats the matter with you? so today sam and i watched connie the cow lol it was fun. last night we watched 13 ghosts and it was one of the stupidst movies i have ever seen in my life. so a little bit of advice to everyone DONT WASTE YOUR MONEY ON IT, ITS DISGUSTING! ok so anywho.. mom and i dyed my hair its just like bright red n shit its neat i like it. thats the only exciting thing that is happening right now. i really wanna go to a show but of course there isnt one anywhere near here so that is pretty much impossible! i asked dad to take me to portland to see bad religion..even though that would be my 4th time seeing them i really dont care because they are amazing. i'd rather see the henry rollins band but nooo there not on tour. GOD DAMN. i already missed the circle jerks and im still fucking pissed off about this goddamn. ah well i'm really bored and i have nothing to do so im just listening to albums and yeah i think i'll go now. Current Mood: hyperCurrent Music: rollins band-tearing me apart |
| Saturday, September 25th, 2004 |
| 1:19 pm |
I want to conquer the world, give all the idiots a brand new religion.
so yeah, bored off my ass as usual. got up at 10 talked to raymond and have been listening to bad religion and against all authority all morning. i got a free lunachicks cd earlier this week its wonderful..of course its the fucking lunachicks henry rollins is doing another spoken word tour if it comes close..im going! i'd die to see henry being how he is my damn god. ha. school sucks the only exciting that is going on is crafts class and im embroidering the bad brains logo on a pillowcase. FUCK YEA! well i'm going down to help my mom paint some shit at the skatepark n then im going to dye my hair hell ya! k so bye Current Mood: chipperCurrent Music: bad religion-epiphany |
| Monday, September 20th, 2004 |
| 9:52 am |
i want to conquer the world give all the idiots a brand new religion. |
| Wednesday, July 14th, 2004 |
| 12:34 pm |
OMG
OH MY GOD.....SICK OF IT ALL JULY 31 BOISE IDAHO HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!! AND WHO IS GOING? ALLIE IS!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Current Mood: anxiousCurrent Music: the damned-machine gun etiquette |
| Saturday, July 10th, 2004 |
| 11:11 pm |
so warped tour yesterday in boise was amazing. started out with rise against and omg i never thought they'd be that good live i was so impressed. then the casualties omfg...words cannot even describe them. they were on the maurice stage and it was all dusty it was great. the mosh was wicked awesome too. anti-flag was beautiful..but then..bad religion came on...wow..wow..wow.. ive never danced so much in my life when they ended with sorrow all i could do was stand there and sing..i got choked up i almost cried..it was the most beautiful experience of my life..and slowfx was good..tho i was kinda dissapointed but it was still great cuz i mean shit its nofx. but ya i broke part of my thumb i can barely walk my calves hurt so bad i still have dust in my hair i have bruises and no voice..ha ha...who cares it was wonderful! |
| Wednesday, May 19th, 2004 |
| 10:36 am |
well
Well so here is how the week of school is going...um SHITTY lets see somebody is pissing me off like no other. then they tell a bunch of people how much she hates nikki then tries to hang out with her and thats bullshit!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND I HOPE U READ THIS BECAUSE I THINK ITS CHICKEN SHIT AND IF U SAY SHIT THEN FUCKING BACK IT UP OR SHUT UR FUCKING MOUTH. bye |
| Friday, April 30th, 2004 |
| 11:50 pm |
i've been listening to pepper all day...damn...like ska'ish..remind of sublime but ya there rad as hell. i had 2 golf meets this week that SUCKED and i wish it was fuckin over allready...AHHHH..hmm i have nothing to say my pizza is good mmm |